some random thoughts..

its late..a lot of things are keeping me awake..
i wanted to cry.. but i know i shouldn't..there's no reason for me to cry..
but my mind just wont stop generating scenes that may or may not happen..
i am afraid.. i just don't know how tough I am..
am i just projecting that I am strong? pretending.. maybe..

i am happy and content in my life..
pero we all know its not always heaven..there would be some reasons in life that you won't be able to control.. na you just have to accept.. what if you can't accept it? that it hurts so much.. then you don't have a choice.. and since you really do love that someone.. the better thing to do is keep quite and accept you're fate..

why do people have to be so intelligent? can't we just be simple and enjoy the simple things in life? why do we have to experience things.. non-sense stuff.. para lang masabi na you lived your life fully.. why does being simple and conservative isn't cool? am neither conservative nor liberated.. just smart enough to know my limits..

i hope i can always protect the people i love from everything that could harm them..
but am pretty aware that I can't..coz they have a life to live too..
they have to experience everything that would come their way to learn..be hurt..and to be strong.

we can't always consider other people..like.. may gagawin ka tas iisipin mo muna kung ano yung ma feel ng ibang tao about it.. for as long as you want to do it, gagawin mo di ba? kasi if you always consider other people, you can never be trully happy. baket kaya hindi na lang maging happy tayo if happy yung ibang tao? sana ganon na lang ka simple..

for all my troublesome thoughts.. I entrust everything to Him.

..work week and eating out @ marina

days passes by so fast.. i was given a task in the office and we were suppose to finish it yesterday. good thing, the 3 of us (newbies) can't make it on the deadline that's why our tech lead moved our progress meeting to next week. how i wish i could pause the time, so i can meet deadlines.. its not easy learning a new software.. especially if you're meant to customize it. =( i know i can do it.. just have to learn it fast..

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Weekend @ Marina

jeffAnna@marina
by annasilaran.

last saturday, we went to Marina South Hawker Centre and enjoyed ourselves to eat-all-you-can seafood-steamboat. our experience here is different coz we cooked our food on our table. we just had a small pot of water over a stove, w/ a sizzling plate. so we cooked the shrimp, fish, squids, chicken strips, beef strips etc. on the spot! in the end we managed to have our "mixed-soup" =D we just don't know how to call it.. we just dumped different dimsums in it, some veggies and some of the crabs! ayos! =D pa-cham na lasa nung soup hehe!
we finished around 9pm. since we we're so full, we got a taxi on our way home =D

bryan's birthday!!

today is bryan's 4th birthday..

bryan is our "adopted" cousin, who apparently, was intentionally left by his mom..and my tito, mame's youngest brother, brought him to our home some time in January 2003. so when I arrived home that night, I was surprised that we already have a baby at home..instant! =D I was asking my mom, months before that day, if she can still conceive a baby.. kasi i felt a longing for a younger sibling.. so my mom, adopted a puppy! hehe! si kulit. then after a couple of months.. here comes bryan.. =D so since then he became our (if not my) responsibility..i would buy him milk, since he was 4 months old then..if my pay wasn't enough for the budget..my parents was there to help =) and for a couple of months, his father, my tito, brings supplies.. but i can no longer remember the the last time he visited his son..except:

• on bryan's first birthday, my tito arrived with a magician for the kids.
• sometime between bryan's 1st and 2nd birthday.. Hindu Ku nay nag matandaan db?
• New Year's day, 2004,2005, 2006. when we're celebrating family's reunion.

im not mad at my tito naman..anyway.. I am trying to understand him why he seldom visits or sees his son. i know that with his job, he won't be able to support his child. besides, maybe it hurts him more seeing his son grow away from him.. so as not to prolong/worsen the agony..he chooses not see him nay lang.. i don't really know..
I pity bryan when I first saw him.. but I felt happy knowing we're having a baby at home. Good thing he had grown up well (I had a second about this). He's the typical playful child. However, since we watch UFC at home..i guess you have an idea how he plays.. =D yun ang past time nya.. when ever my dad is watching tv, bigla nay lang may dadamba sa kanya.. =) he's all time fave movie is Shrekk, recent fave is Cars. We uses to play Beetles cd just to put him to sleep, mga 1 year old sya nito.. as in gasgas nay yung cd sa kanya..

nakaka miss si kolokoy..kasi malambing sya sa aken and takot sya aken!! ayaw nya ako nagagalit. kasi nakita na nya kung pano ako magalit =D ang dialog nya.. "ayaw galit anna!!" habang umiiyak.. hehe! Daddy ko nag aalaga sa kanya, pati si Kuya Ian nya, away bati sila.. and bryan is already acting as a "kuya" to Ariannel, my niece. mas malambing pa nga si bryan kesa ke arian eh.. =P

sana hindi kame iwan ni bryan when he's already grown up.. alam mu yun, sana piliin pa din nya dade and mame ko, kasi I know sya yung happiness ng parents ko, although madalas sakit ng ulo hahaha! =D

by the way, sabi pala ni Bryan ang name is Bryan Cunanan sapwit !! =D

i hope my blogger pa pag laki ni bryan, so he can read this entry hehe! =D

first day hi! =)

my first day at work here wasn't that traumatic.. thank goodness =)

I used to be early on my first work-days..as in, the only day na hindi ako late..=D
that's why I'm always after a flexi schedule at work..but last Thursday was different..I am late for 10 mins. my TL looked at her watched as she approached me at the lobby, smiling. =) its was raining hard that morning in case she would ask why am I late.. hehe! syempre dapat ready sa alibi..=P

our office is cool..at least on my opinion..hehe!
before you get to the work-place you'll pass through the pantry where the billiards table lies at the center..(oops its not used for dining naman hehe).. we can get free food and drinks at the pantry if we want, except those labeled ofcourse =D

my work place is typical..although my TL said we are transferring to a new building in two weeks time.. there are 3 newbies in the group (including me).. the other 2 guys were malaysian and Indonesian.. so eto na ang story, hindi ko trip yung isa.. yung indo.. kasi suplado sya.. whenever I would ask something, parang halos ayaw nya ko sagutin.. antipats! feeling ko din ma ere sya..(i'm being mean now..) he enjoys his ipod nano.. kiber ko! =P

i didn't had problem about lunch kasi my TL called me for lunch..akala ko nga naiwan na ako at first.. but my TL managed to wait for me hehe..kahiya..=P so the group had lunch at the nearby hawker.. kaso when I ordered my food, i thought it was pork yun pala tofu yung nabigay sa aken.. so bitin! pero okay lang.. i've got not much work to do naman.. just have to read articles and tutorials.. =P

so my first day isn't that bad.. hopefully I'll be able to cope up with the environment..
pang international kasi ang team..=D